I understand you completely. I'm just the same. The longer you reflect on it the angrier you get about A) what happened, B) how the Judenpresse is lying about it and C) how the Republican cucks are showing their real ugly kikeface and are attacking Trump.
Had a fallout with some black guys at work who accused me of "being a racist". Yeah, I cant tell them I am, but I was concentrating on the violation of the 1st Amendment. I kept telling them :So you are OK with shutting somebody down? And they were like "You're defending racists" And I said, yeah, i would defend the rights of commies just the same and they kept repeating like a broken record. To them all that they can see is "muh civil rights" and "muh slavery".
They are poor SOBs, completely brainwashed by the filthy Yids.